Monday, June 29, 2009

Mini-Reunion - Duluth Style

Had a great time on Saturday with some ol' high school friends. The gang reunited this time in Duluth... Peder & his wife Sarah and their daughter Relia; Laurie & Pete and their two girls Kate & Elizabeth; Holly & her wee one Claire; special surprise guests Jackie & Heather.

We had so much fun watching the girls play & catching up with each other. I know I did at least! Although I feel like I could kidnap each & every ONE OF YOU and keep you to myself for extended one-on-one conversations. It's hard sometimes to get ENOUGH time with the talking. I love having everyone here (or just being with everyone) I have to really suck up each minute of conversation and store it for later! But I always think of OTHER things after the fact that I'd like to talk with everyone with. *sigh* Ah well, it was still fun.

The weather was sketchy at first - but cleared up enough where we could grill & eat outside.

It's so much fun to see all the kids and see how much they've changed in the past 6 months. I can't believe it's been 18 years since we were all in high school. That freaks me out a little bit, but what can you do?

I am so happy to have such a cool group of friends who stays in touch and makes the effort to get together. I REALLY appreciate each & every one of you!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Daycare: week 2

I didn't cry today! I am improving, although Miss Dahlia, not so much. It's so sad to see her reach out for me and then put her hands on her head as if the world is falling. It breaks my heart. Hopefully she will start settling down soon. It's a beautiful day today and I know they're planning on going for a walk as soon as everyone had breakfast. Oh my sweet little pumpkin.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Weekend Update

This weekend went too fast, as usual, but what can ya do...

On Friday I found out that not only does Dahlia have a cold, but she also has an ear infection in both ears! Ugh! She's now on her first dose of antibiotics. Hmph. I think she's starting to feel better, although yesterday she was CRABBY. So.....who knows. Hopefully it'll continue to get better.

We went for a hike in Hartley which was nice. I hadn't hiked that section of the Superior Hiking Trail for quite a while!

Saturday we biked down to watch the marathoners come in. It takes about 5 minutes for us to get to London Road where we watched most of the half-marathoners come in, the wheelchairs and the elite runners. It was HOT out. I felt really bad for those runners. It hasn't been hot here YET and that was the day. They considered canceling the race because of the temps & humidity...but they temps leveled off and the humidity dropped. The half-marathoners took the brunt of it.

It was cool to see the elite runners come through. The guy that won had a HUGE lead. He is originally from MN and he won.

A Minnesotan hasn't won Grandma's since 1982! He was SUPER lean...holy cow. I read in the paper yesterday that he was 5'11" and weighs 125!!! Made me feel just gross. Oh well. After we watched the racers, we biked down to Canal Park to check out the action, then spent some time playing on the pebble beach behind Leif Erickson park. I nearly died on the way home. Biking straight up hill when it's hot & humid is NOT my forte. Even though I walked most of the hills, I was pretty overheated by time I got home!!

The rest of the day we putzed around home - I managed to get one wall primed in Dahlia's room (if I just had a block of 4-5 hours I think I could get the dang thing done! It's a TINY room!!). Steve putzed in the yard and Dahlia actually took a nap (not in her crib but oh well).

Later that afternoon Michelle & Chris stopped by for a little front-porch time. It was good to see them and I'm looking forward to seeing a lot more of them SOON! :)

Yesterday we had french toast for Father's Day, took a hike on another section of the SHT and spent most of the day at my FIL's.

It ended up turning into a really late night, unfortunately, for Miss Dahlia. :( Sometimes dinners out there turn into long productions. (the food was just takes a while to get it to the table!).

And that was my weekend. Now onto another week and a WHOLE LOT of work....

Friday, June 19, 2009

Random Friday Stuff

- Dahlia has a cough - has had one for about a week. I initially thought it was due to all the drainage - the snotty nose, the amazing amounts of drool, etc - because of the teething. But the cough isn't going away and it sounds terrible and kept her (and me) up for most of the night. So....I'm taking her in today. Hopefully it's nothing. We have another appt (18mo) on Wednesday so I hate going in so close to'll be another $100 I'm sure...but I want to make sure she's okay.

-The mailman just came at 9:25am. Usually they come around 3pm. My plan was to mail the Father's Day cards from the house today - later this afternoon (after I uh, make them...). Now my plan is foiled. Hmph.

-My fingernails are super long right now and I have no idea where my husband seems to have stashed ALL the nail clippers. It makes typing really annoying. I could try using Dahlia's but I don't think they'll work too well.

-My to-do list today includes: thinking & creating (amongst other things). Hmmmm.....

-Happy Friday!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Austin Tornado

Austin was hit by a tornado last night. The north side of town - Mapleview, Todd Park, Nature Center areas.

Sounds like most of the damage was at Todd Park, UBC, Morem Tree Service & the Nature Center. Haven't gotten *too* many details but it sounds like it could've been much much worse. My folks were without phone & electricity til about 5am this morning. I know some power was still out (where my Grandma lives, for example) as of this morning. Hopefully everything's okay.

My gosh they get the severe weather down there - tornadoes, floods, ice storms,'s starting to make Duluth seem REALLY boring! Sheesh. We can't even get an inch of rain!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Progress? No, not really...

Day 3 drop off. Not good, for either of us but my trick today was I drove! So immediately ran to my car and sped away - that way I couldn't hear the crying. I also find if I distract myself as much as possible, that's better. But now I feel the need to call and see how she's doing.

My heart? Still aches.

Just talked to the center. She's napping! In a crib! Whohooo! That's a major accomplishment. I guess she really needs to have a person, a big person, near her at all times. She wants nothing to do with other children, she wants her personal adult playing with, attending to her at all times. *sigh* I know this will get better...I just hope it's not too long of a road. She ate lots of mac & cheese (that a a girl!) and enjoyed sitting at the 'big kids' counter and doing a puzzle with the cook. Didn't like going back into a highchair so much for lunch. It's a slow process....hopefully it'll start to go a bit smoother....

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

No One Said it Would Be Easy....

...and no one said it'd be this hard....

Day 2 - full day of daycare for Miss Dahlia. Dahlia & Mommy? Aren't doing that great.

She has been uber clingy since last week's adventures in Daycare...she only wants ME now which is a change from her previous status of only wanting DADDY. She's fine when I'm not around, but if I'm in & out of the room, have to run to the store, leave the room so Daddy can put her to bed, etc. then it's freak out time.

So, I knew today would be tough. We walked over to the center and went in with little to no fussing. As soon as I set her down though she started crying. I sat with her for a while and tried to get her distracted by a book or toy, didn't work. Finally the daycare teacher said "okay Dahlia, give Mommy a hug and then we'll go read a book." That didn't go over well, but I sort of got a hug..and HUGE tears (her not me). She quieted down pretty quickly, but by time I was walking down the block past the building, I could hear her again. *sigh* Then the tears started (mine not hers).

I just feel icky about this whole thing. I mean, YEAH I know that I can't keep working like this and expect to bring her with me. It's not stimulating for her, it's distracting for me AND she never gets to be outside. Somedays she's content to play by herself but other days she wants me to hold her the whole time.

I KNOW that she will get used to the other kids (right now she's VERY intimidated by the toddlers) and I KNOW that at some point she'll not be able to get there fast enough and not want to leave when I come and get her....but right now I just feel terrible.

I feel like - REALLY? You can't do the simple task of raising your own child for a few years? You're the one she (mentally) NEEDS right now and you walk away? All she wants to do is be with YOU and you leave her there with strangers?

I understand that some of my thoughts are irrational and some are purely guilt-driven but I can't help it.

I also can't help think that - gosh, our whole lives we get placed into a routine, a schedule a way to fit in...up until now Dahlia didn't have that...what a blessing! We did our own thing! We ran around and had no set schedule. We could fly with the wind.

And yet - don't kids THRIVE on routine? Couldn't this be the cause of her horrible sleeping patterns? (yes, possibly) On her delayed developmental milestones (walking)?

I fight this battle in myself every hour. I think of her sweet, blotchy, tear-stained face and my heart hurts.

I know it'll get easier. Just not today.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Park Point Rummage Sale

I'm not much of a rummage saler at all, but my thinking has changed now that Dahlia is in my life. I enjoy finding cheap pants at the thrift store or at a sale that i know she'll just blow the knees out of anyway. I like buying an almost new hat for less than 1/2 it's Gap price. Dahlia is the key. Baby clothes are the way to go.

So when my friend Heather invited me to go to the annual Park Point Rummage Sale today I said YES! Even though I should've been working around the house, I couldn't resist. The day is beautiful and Dahlia needs pants!

I also was looking for a toddler sized camp-chair which I haven't found....I shall continue my hunt.

What we did get though was this:

6 pairs of pants
1 sleeper
10 shirts
1 dress

all for $11.60! Yes!

I also got her a SUPER ridiculously cute navy & white dress (very classic style) with matching hat for $5. It is a 4T so lord knows when she'll fit into it but I just couldn't resist.

We also picked up a tub full of blocks (all shapes & sizes) for $3.00.

And a bag of mini-donuts for $3.50 (man those used to be so much better and so much cheaper! I think my old lady body just can't handle them any more. I have more than half a bag left...any takers?)

So my total for today was $23.10.

Not bad for a morning's work.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Baby's First Day

Definitely harder for me than her...but she didn't like the whole "dropping off" bit today. :( Pooey

Clearly she is bored with this photoshoot and is ready to go...

Outside the infant room at "school."

Did I mention we got a kitten?

I'm so behind on all this blogging. Ay yi yi - I have completely neglected to mention that our new family member has arrived!

Meet Juno!

I have yet to get a decent photo of her. She's a spaz and is always running all over the place.

She's a Siamese and she's about 9 weeks old. We got her from a crazy farm far away in the boondocks. Sheesh! She is super playful and sweet and much nicer to hold now that we clipped her nails (by 'we' I mean Steve). Dahlia loves to play with her which is awesome. Give the girl a cat toy and she can entertain the kitten for quite some time. They chase after balls together which is funny. Juno likes to jump on the pages of magazines that Dahlia is looking through. Dahlia doesn't like that too much.

Beavis is warming up to the idea of her. She always wants to play with him and he is mostly like, "whatever" but I think soon they'll be tearing around. One night he was trying to get her to chase him (he likes to be the pursued apparently)...but she was more interested in trying to get his tail.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


Just walked over and dropped Miss Dahlia off at daycare. *sigh* She wanted to play right away...I wanted to hang around and make sure she was "okay." I left. I felt a heavy sadness descend. I walked home while crying behind my big sunglasses.

It's sooooooooooo quiet here. Even the kitty is quiet.

I'm not sure I'll get a lot done this morning, even though I had big plans to.


Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Toothlessness & immobility - no more!

GAH I'm behind on posting. I know! I was reprimanded by someone today (you know who you are) because I haven't posted yet about some BIG NEWS!!

The first big news is that when I was in Los Angeles, Dahlia took her first all-by-herself steps while at her Grandma B's! Eeek! Now since then I've seen her take a couple, she took more for my Mom when we were in Longville last weekend...and since then? Not so much...but the important thing is, it has begun. At long last.

The other big news - DAHLIA HAS A TOOTH! And what I mean by "has" is, is that it is just breaking through - I mean, it's through just not very far. Very exciting! That was discovered last Thursday, much to my shock. I always am checking but til now hadn't ever found anything! Might have explained why she was a BEAR last week. Poor thing. Now I'm checking regularly for more breakthroughs...none as of yet.

I was at my folks' house this weekend and went through some of my old things (ay yi yi) and among those was my baby book. I too did not walk or have teeth until 17 1/2 months.

Miss Dahlia is right on (my) schedule!

The other big news (*sniff*) is that my little girl is starting school (I hate the word daycare, I admit it) tomorrow!!! GAH. I found a place that I love, that is less than 2 blocks from our house, came HIGHLY recommended and is run by someone I know! Today we went & hung out for a while, she ate lunch there and played. Tomorrow I will leave her for a few hours (through lunchtime) then Thursday she's on her own. I will spend a few hours tomorrow morning sobbing and wondering what the hell I'm going to do with all this spare time?!? (oh yeah, work). I'm excited & anxious for her, I think she'll enjoy it far more than coming to work with me; but I'm also a little bit sad (for myself). And relieved at the same time. I can't imagine going to the doctor or getting a hair cut or getting a productive day in at work without her on my lap! It'll be a change that's for sure. She's in the infant room until she can actually walk...she is WAY older than the other infants...but I don't imagine she'll be in there too long.

Oh and the other topic (nighttime) (which I don't want to SAY out loud because I'm sure I'll jinx going MUCH much better. I'm much more rested these days. Let's hope it lasts...

Monday, June 08, 2009

This week's meal plan...

is up!

I'm awaiting a new "awesome" pizza crust recipe from Nick via Steve....if that doesn't materialize this week well, then we'll use our old standby...

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Productivity Update

Here's how my month of productivity turned out:

* paint Dahlia's room (includes patching, sanding, scraping, priming, painting) because it is driving me insane and no little girl should have to live in such a room - Much to my (and especially my mother-in-law's) chagrin, this is still yet unaccomplished....the room has been patched (which was a pain in the ass) & sanded...but as of yet it has not been primed or painted. I'm not sure why I can't get to this project! Hmph.

* remove wallpaper in our bedroom. It is HIDEOUS. And apparently impervious to water/fabric softener/vinegar. It's super fun to strip off. I've done maybe 1/4 of this. Not much since the initial push. It's so hard and annoying. I need instant gratification, apparently. It is still hideous.

* write in and put the photos in Dahlia's baby book. - well, her book is written in but I have yet to organize the photos. Because I am lame.

* get our camcorder figured out and start editing the FL trip. Got all the footage OFF the camera, now have to find time (at work) to edit it. The HD footage really is too much for my little macbook to handle...hmmm, upgrade anyone?? (ha yeah right)

* edit & sound design my short film (shot last fall!) It has been edited! I did some final (I hope) tweaking on it yesterday and am waiting to hear back from my sound designer of choice. I'd like to get this done SOON so that I can send it off to some festivals. There's a local one in mid-July that I'd like it to be a part of.

What else did I do? Well, I was in a wedding (as you all know), I went to the zoo (ditto), I made some placemats for a wedding gift which I forgot to take a photo of (pooey), I baked & cooked, my parents visited, we planted loads of things in the yard, I went to Los Angeles, I went to Longville, I watched my baby take her first steps (wheeeee!) and that's about it!

On tap for June: plant more flowers, drink margaritas, read books, take walks, ride the bike, play with Dahlia outside, try new recipes, have friends over for dinner, celebrate the triplet's 2nd birthday, visit old friends, paint Dahlia's room, work on her babybook, create, finish, laugh, love. Should be a good month.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

A Month of Catching Up

It's been a little light in the posting department lately - I will try to get back on track here soon.'s my May in a nutshell:

Chris & Michelle's fabulous wedding & reception:

Mother's Day with Miss Dahlia & Steve at the zoo:

Dahlia posing with dahlias at the nursery. A trip made with BOTH Grandmas in tow.

Dahlia's trip to the farm with her ECFE class.

The first margarita night of the season with Anna (Hi Anna!).

Dahlia in her BIG GIRL car seat...she loves facing forward.

Hanging out at the Dresden Room in LA with friends. They have a house drink there called "Blood & Sand" - I haven't had one in 7 years! Delish.

A quick kayak paddle while in Longville with my family this past weekend.

More regular posting to come....

Tuesday, June 02, 2009