Wednesday, November 30, 2005

I'm a reject

Officially. It hasn't been a good couple of days on the film festival submission front.

I'm not feeling much like blogging. And I have nothing to say, really.

I do have cat hair in my eye and I can feel it starting to swell. Another thing to be happy about.


Monday, November 28, 2005

Salsa Cardio Tonight!

Just back from another workout at the Y. I'm really enjoying this "Salsa Cardio" class. Actually - it kicks my butt which is exactly what I need right now. We're in the CRAP season of dark at 4:30 yet no snow so I can't really hike, bike, x-country ski or snowshoe after work right this is good! I'm actually USING my Y membership! I didn't know if I would or not since I haven't been a member since I was about 8 or so...I'm really enjoying it so far.

My arms, however, are like rubber chickens. I kid you not. Tricep (t?) pushups make me watery....but they're getting easier which is a good sign, right?

It rained ALL day today. WTF? It's November 28th. HELLO. I live in Duluth for chrissakes....where is the snow? Apparently it's all in South Dakota and Western MN - heading our way? Perhaps. I would love a snow day about now.

Did you all have good and yummy Thanksgivings?

Quick recap:
  • Made pie (pictured below)
  • Ate turkey, fixin's and pie with Steve's family
  • Drank much beer & wine
  • Slept like a rock
  • Putzed around
  • washed car
  • Drove to Austin
  • Ate George's Pizza (delish!)
  • Drank beer
  • Walked at the Nature Center
  • Made roasted yams & parsnips in a maple glaze
  • Ate lots of turkey, fixin's, pie with my family
  • Drank lots of beer & wine
  • Played RACKO
  • Didn't sleep like a rock at all
  • Ate yummy breakfast (My mom rocks!)
  • Visited my grandparents
  • Watched the Vikings
  • Ate homemade lasagna
  • Drove back to Duluth
  • No beer or wine
  • Slept almost like a rock
To you get the pattern?

THAT'S why there was Salsa Cardio tonight!!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! Posted by Picasa


My warmest wishes to all on this wonderful day of thanks! Enjoy time with friends, family, loved ones, football, whatever you like.....have a wonderful wonderful day.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

We're way past the colors here up north. But this is pretty to look at so I thought I'd post it. It's from the hike around Dry Lake in Ely, MN. Posted by Picasa

Monday, November 21, 2005

Border Battle

Man I love it when the Vikings win!! Especially against the Packers and especially on Monday night!


Sunday, November 20, 2005


We just got back from pre-thanksgiving dinner. It was fun. It was a group of people that we've only hung out with a couple times, but I really like them and maybe it will grow into more get-togethers. That would rock.

Now it's time for a nightcap and Thursday's episode of The Apprentice - we have redneck TiVo (a vcr). ha.

SHORT WEEK - yipeeee!!!!

Weekends are fun

Just a little note on the weekend...I love them and think there should be more than 52 a year. Personally.

Friday night we had 'date night.' We had pizza for dinner and then planned on going to see a flick. However the "Christmas Cit of the North" Parade mucked up our plans in getting to the theater in time so we moved on to the next "date night" activity...which was a lovely hot tub soak at Steve's Mom's house (they were gone). It was soooo relaxing. A little Jazz, a little soaking it was nice. Then we were almost late to the late show of the movie (we're bad that way). We saw North Country which I thought was very good. Heartbreaking to be sure but good. Every movie we go to apparently makes me bawl my head off, why is that? It was fun to see the Iron Range scenery and towns I'm somewhat familiar with. There were some very powerful moments.

Saturday was PLUMBING DAY 2005 EXTRAVAGANZA but it turned into fixing the toilet day only. HEY that's fine with me. Our neighbor helped Steve & his wife and I ran errands. We have new guts in the toilet and that is sooooo great. New toilet seat too which is nice since ours broke last week. We had dinner with the neighbors (salmon & halibut steaks on the grill, couscous and edamame) followed by peaches & cream pie at our house for dessert. We sat and talked for hours and I started a new knitting project - yay!

Today - slept in, putzed around, read the paper, we found a house that looks very appealing to us in the paper and I think we'll go to the open house. IT's not really in our price range and we're not quite ready to be in the market but the location is incredible!! So we might just check it out. We'll see...I have to work on the DVD menu (some more - argh) and then later I think we're going to a turkey/pork loin dinner.....

Tomorrow is work but hey - short week! YES!

Enjoy the rest of the weekend!

Friday, November 18, 2005

It's Friday!!

Whew...made it through another week.

Today was much better. Thank you all for your kind words and cyber hugs. Needed them.

Today - my zipper works! (if I zip it just the right way - wheeee)
Today - my new windshield wipers are on (I was trying to make it WAY harder than it was. Steve put them on in about 2 seconds.
Today - is FRIDAY which means I don't have to go to work for 2 days. Double Yay.
Today - we're going to have pizza or spaghetti for dinner, GO to a movie (unbelieveable) and then take a jacuzzi...lovely....

Tomorrow is another story - errands to run, plumbing to fix, laundry to do, dust to collect, etc...but I get to be HOME and that is awesome.


Thursday, November 17, 2005

Mood Gone South


I'm in a terrible mood.

I had an incredibly frazzled hour at work from 3-4 where I was back and forth on the phone with my boss and our travel agent as he is stuck in Philly. I must've made 20 (30?) phone calls and was just left feeling ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZT at the end of it.

I ordered some soup from work today because there were a few cases that had cosmetic flaws and of course no one bothered to tell me when it came in so mine got taken home with the lady who brought it in and I'll get it tomorrow. Not that big of a deal but MAN once again to I feel fucking invisible.

I tried to put on my FUCKING wiper blades after work (Yes, I feel like saying FUCK a lot right now) and I just can't get it. It took about 30 minutes to get one off and now I can't get the new one on to save my life. I feel like an IDIOT and it is frustrating me greatly and things like that do not sit well with me.

And my fucking jacket - the zipper keeps going up up up - hey, no problem - only -13 windchill this morning. GREAT.

And I started making dinner, went to grab my old stand by tomato soup for a recipe and there's none there. I usually always buy a can or two of a couple of creamed soups and also tomato just in case but there is nothing there this time - so that means I have to think of something else involving baked potatoes and ground beef which I already defrosted. My options are VERY limited.

And I just talked to Steve and he's way out in the boonies and informed me that there's FRESH CAT PEE on the wall upstairs which he didn't have time to clean up (yet, I could've cleaned it at lunchtime had I KNOWN ABOUT IT) and I think he's ornery at me because I'm going to work on the DVD tonight instead of watching "The Donald" but I told him that i was going to work tonight on Tuesday and I think he generally tunes me out and that makes me very sad.

And when I cry I get hives all over my face so I am LOVELY right now. Take my word for it.


Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Signs I'm Actually Not Quite Ready for Winter

  • Woke up this morning and it was truly FREEZING ASS COLD in the house. Hmph. And the 50mph winds weren't helping anything...they even SOUND cold.
  • It's dark all the time
  • My zipper is broken on my winter coat. I do not have "winter coat" in the current budget! Ack!!
  • I lost a mitten last February and have yet to replace them. Brrr, cold fingers
  • My storm door was frozen shut.
  • My back gate was also frozen shut.
  • My garage door too was frozen shut.
  • My windshield wipers are inadequate (to say the least) for all the slushy, salty, wet crap on the roads. *
  • I have yet to get touch-up paint for my car and to touch up the little rock chips which have been plaguing me since warm weather. And now the salt & crap is already on the roads - ack!! **
  • My hat is warm but makes me look a bit like a conehead. ***
  • It's cold.

Those are just a few reasons. *sigh* I am, however, ready to snowshoe and x-country ski! I suppose it has to be cold and snowy for that. Ay yi yi...and while I do like winter (I do, really), I just don't like the cold - ha ha...

*I bought wiper blades after work.
** I ordered touch-up paint after lunch.
***I still look like a dork in my hat. Perhaps I should knit one....

Oh! And I went to my 2nd day of Salsa Cardio - wheeeeeeeee! My triceps almost died during the push-up portion of class but I *mostly* did it! Yes!

Then I had a beer. Is that bad?

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Winter Storm Advisory

Well, winter is knocking on the door....but since I live fairly close to the big lake I will probably get crappy slushy ice stuff instead of actual snow tonight. Hmph. I'm in the mood for snow. Perhaps it's the new snowshoes that I just bought or maybe I'm ready to get more into the holiday spirit or something. I don' t know. That being said, I'm NOT in the mood for cold. AT ALL. We're on a strict oil budget right now too (ie: we're broke) so the house is set at a toasty 60 degrees when we're awake - ack! I don't really see that lasting too long once the temps really start to dip, do you?! Yeah, me neither.

I do have the thermostat programmed to turn on though at 6:30 so it's nice and toasty when I drag my arse outta bed. Otherwise it's just not happening!

In other news - I ordered my wedding dress last night - eeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love it. I do. It's 'the one.' I'm so excited but sadly I cannot talk about it, post it, etc since Steve stops by from time to time and he's on a no-need-to-know basis. *sigh* I had them take a couple pics of me in it last night w/my jewelry and I kept looking at them today. I am a dork. I know.

I can't believe I have to wait 10 months to wear it - ack!

Monday, November 14, 2005

The baby blanket! Finished!! This was my 1st baby blanket and my 2nd knitted project. It's not perfect but it was a lot of fun. Hopefully the baby will enjoy it. :-) Posted by Picasa

Detail of L's baby blanket Posted by Picasa

Cross it off my list

I had a very productive weekend...

finished the BABY BLANKET that I've been knitting like a mad fiend for the past few months (long story short - I started it in August knitted til October, decided there was a fatal flaw, ripped out 5 skeins of yarn and started over. Completed in 4 weeks. Yes!). Pictures soon. It was my first blanket (2nd knitted project) and I think it was a success. There are flaws but hey, that's what makes it one of a kind. I think the Mom-to-Be liked it. She just happens to be my best friend. :-)

I went wedding dress shopping and tried on a gazillion different gowns and came back to the decision that the one I tried on in Duluth and like back in October is the one I'm going to get. Unfortunately it is discontinued and there are about 7 left in my size ANYWHERE so I'm feeling the need to get my butt up there and order it.

I aslo decided on bridesmaid dresses (*I think) with the help of my Mom, sister and S (My two bridesmaids), looked for centerpiece decoration ideas and figured out Thanksgiving plans.

It was a good, and busy, weekend.

Tonight I'm taking my first Salsa Cardio class at the Y....ay yi yi! I'm nervous as I've never joined a gym before and only gone to one class (with my sister last year). Wish me luck!

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Blown Away

Just another November day of gray skies and winds! Holy crap. I know it's not a hurricane or anything but 50mph wind gusts are plenty for me. I could hardly get in and then out again of my building for work. Sheesh. I thought Francis (my car) was going to get blown off the freeway. I'm glad that I'm now tucked inside and don't have to leave the house again til morning.

Tonight's schedule:

Roasted Squash & Apple Soup (courtesy of Dr. Weil & Martha)
and finishing some CRAFT PROJECTS which seriously need to be finished.

Sounds good to me!

Monday, November 07, 2005

Screening #2

Well, this weekend's screening has come and gone. We're a hit! I had a lot of positive response from both crew/cast and friends which was great. Granted they're my friends but I think you can tell who's for real and who's not. It was a lot of fun to see everyone and to reconnect with some people I haven't seen in ages.

It was also cool to be in a "real" theater with stadium seats, popcorn and the whole she-bang. I can't wait for more.

We're now raising money for dvd replication - (Paypal - NewtonsDisease[at] and we're submitting to SXSW this week.

Next up?

Wedding Dress Shopping
Best Friend's Baby Shower

wheeeeeeeeee - Can a weekend get any girlier than that?!?

Friday, November 04, 2005


The screening was weird….

I got to Jason’s at about 6:10 so we could have a glass of wine before going to the theater We were testing the DVD and our lovely moment of relaxation was ruined because the DVD WOULDN’T PLAY! Wonderful. It’d get to a certain point and it would freeze up and then start jumping around. So not cool. Commence freaking out. We decided to take the DVD’s (we had a few versions/copies) and get to the space so we could check it there. We did and it worked there for some reason – we tested the whole DVD just to make sure. This did not ease any knots in my stomach OR make my body temperature return to a normal level. Sheesh.

We had about 35 people or so – about what we thought. We watched the film – not a ton of laughs, but a few. There are still some things that I think are hilarious and no one laughs at them. There was a section of the film where the sound was off by a few frames, don’t know why but that was frustrating and annoying. I had to fix that at lunchtime so we can make another DVD for tomorrow. Afterwards we invited people to Red Star (martini bar) for Q&A, drinks, hanging out (it was about 9:20pm at this point – so not terribly late) and NO ONE CAME! (SOUND FAMILIAR?) In fact there were a great number of people that didn’t talk to me/us at all! Hmmm, I don’t think that’s a good sign. I can say about 3 people for sure loved it (first timers, that is) and other than that I really have no idea. I don’t think people liked it all that much. I know this is a movie for 1 in 10 but it’s still weird.

So, Steve, me, J&O went to Red Star. We hooked up with a guy from the McKnight Foundation – (long story) he’s a filmmaker and was in town giving some information about the McKnight fellowships (2 $25k grants for filmmakers, for Minnesota filmmakers) and having a ‘reception’ at Red Star afterwards. We met him last year and he is very cool so we joined him and one other documentarian (we also met her last November). That was fun the 6 of us hung out and drank martinis and smoked cigarettes. It was exciting to have a film conversation in Duluth! It was good networking. J’s applying for that grant this year. Only about 45-55 people apply each year – those are excellent odds!!

I had a crantini and also a beer and I felt like crap. I think I fell asleep at home in 2.5 seconds. Steve was downstairs eating some Taco Johns, I could hear him taking the stuff out of the bag and BAM I was out. I don’t remember him coming to bed at all. I had a headache today.

I feel sort of – eh, about the whole screening. I just wonder why people didn’t stick around or even say hello to me (some people). It’s a disconcerting feeling. I understand not wanting to discuss a film right after seeing it. I don’t like doing that at all and I’m generally not hanging out with the filmmakers. I get the fact that it takes a while so soak in and it needs to be thought about. All I’m asking for is a “hello” or a “thanks for the invite.” I don’t understand people.

And we get to do it again tomorrow! With more people! I am going to be a nervous wreck. I believe 10:30am is too early to start drinking wine.


One Down

....and one to go....

There were some MAJOR minor technical difficulties pre-screening but we got things worked out before start time. THANK GOD.

Just got back from hanging out and sipping martinis so not really in a good blogging mood....well, in a GREAT blogging mood but should do this tomorrow after some sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

It went....okay. Although there are some things that I'm confused about. Mostly about how people FLED the theatre after the screening was done. Hmmm....perhaps not a good sign? I do know that some of my good friends LOVED it which is a huge relief but am wondering why my good friends/neighbors bolted without saying one word to me...????

My in-laws (future) were very Huggy but I'm not sure they "got" it - luckily they were huggy at least - ha!

I ordered som Potato Oles on the way home (via Steve) but canceled said order as I really don't need deep fried potatoes at this now I'm going to bed....

Summation: I'm alive.

More tomorrow.....

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Life vs. Film

It’s 9:02 am. In 12 hours it will all be over but now I have 10 hours to wait.


I’m not really nervous, yet. I mean, I know I will be nervous so there is inherent anxiousness but it’s not really hitting me yet.

Ugh. Actually when I think about it I feel a bit of that yucky twinge. It’s going to be hard to not think about it as I’m writing this. Ha.

My background is in theatre. I am a theatre geek. I started in 6th grade and didn’t look back. My degree is in theatre – which has proved very helpful in my adult-office-career (hmph). I love theatre. I love performing, I love the emotion, the spectacle, the music, the drama, whatever. You get the idea.

I moved to Los Angeles in 1996 to pursue my acting career. It’s not where I wanted to go. I always envisioned myself in a touring production of the latest hot Broadway musical or doing regional theatre throughout the country or whatever. Instead I followed my boyfriend to LA. He was an actor too. LA sucks. In my opinion. I wasn’t tall enough, had big enough boobs, knew the right people enough, willing to sell my soul enough, etc to make it in LA. Perhaps I just wasn’t talented enough but it seemed at every turn they weren’t exactly looking for talent. I don’t know why this surprised me. I didn’t even want to do film. The theatre in LA was pathetic. Underwatched, boring, weird….(*I have some friends who have since started a kick a** theatre company which I SO WISH had been around when I was out there. *sigh*) I did one really strange, highly academic and weird show there….Anyway – so the switch was made to filmmaking.

The digital revolution was in full swing and everyone I knew was gearing up with mini-DV cams, lighting kits, Final Cut Pro and DVD Studio Pro. I was no different. I took classes in editing at AFI and more training at Promax training center (and spent craploads of money on cranes, dollies, etc in the process). I became a filmmaker.

My role throughout these films has been varied – producer, actor, craft services, grunt, accounting, location scout, agent, negotiator, finder-outer, insurance liason, etc. While I really enjoy the actual production part of things, I hate producing. I suck at it. I am, by nature, very non-confrontational. I don’t want to fight with anyone. I don’t want anyone to feel bad (least of all me!), I don’t want to step on any toes and I don’t want anyone to not like me. Lame? Yes. Weak? Perhaps. I just want to be more positive than that. I feel that life is too short to be always in a battle with someone.

Producers have lots of battles. I have fought some of them, shirked some of them and cried a lot. It has been uphill to say the least. I’ve grown in ways, become stronger, understood myself more and have a clearer idea of what I am really looking for out of life. My priorities have changed, I have different goals and I don’t feel quite as tied to what I always thought I would. Huh, go figure. I’m growing up.

So, where is this going? This turned out to be not at all what I thought it would be…ah well…I used to be really upset by the fact that I’m not where I thought I would be. But it has recently become very clear to me, as has the fact that I will never again where pants in the “juniors” department simply because “juniors” do not have hips and someone who is 30+ probably does and that’s okay, that it’s okay that I’m not where I thought I would be. I am somewhere that I love, with someone that I love and everything else is working out on its own.

I’ve worked on this film for 2 years and 10 months. I will probably work on it a bit longer. I’m very proud of it, it’s my baby, I’m protective as hell but it’s not THE ONLY THING in my life any more…and that is an amazing feeling.

I’m mostly proud of myself from accomplishing something, finding myself and discovering there’s more to life than what you think there is when you’re 25. I still have a ways to go but I do feel like I’m finding the right path.

So, 10 hours til the screening. Til I’m judged. Til I have a BIG glass of wine. Whatever happens happens. Perhaps people will love it. Perhaps they’ll hate it (I am guessing a mix of both). Maybe we’ll get into a big festival. Maybe we won’t. Maybe we’ll sell it for $1 million dollars! Maybe we’ll give away copies to our friends for the next 5 Christmases….I don’t know. I do know that it’s time to let the bird fly free and whatever may be will be.

Here is the cutest guy in the whole world - The Pilsbury Doughboy!! And you're all invited to my NEXT Halloween get-together. I'm buying a big keg (and tequila, JenB!) Posted by Picasa