Time

I have not been alone for this long in a very VERY long time. Over 6 months and then I was so large and uncomfortable that it wasn't all that fun anyway. But today I have time to kill and for the most part I'm alone. It's kind of nice to be in a place where I can't DO anything - I mean, I can't work (that much, a little), I can't clean my house, I can't stress about organizing the house, I can't even knit! (forgot my knitting). So I'm chilling out...laying on the bed, surfing the net (thank GOD for wifi, I cannot stress this enough). watch tv, watch a movie, read my book....listen to the winds howl through St. Cloud and wonder if we're getting more rain soon.

Of course I miss the sweet peanut. I was listening to "Radio Paradise" (my FAVORITE) on iTunes radio earlier and they always play songs directly from my brain. As I got out of the shower I was sort of sad about missing Dahlia when "Everybody Hurts" by REM came on. A couple songs later "William Tell's Overture" came on - WTF? I've never heard classical music on Radio Paradise EVER but sure enough - the one classical song I sing to Dahlia ALL THE TIME came on. It's as if the programming comes straight from my brain. Scary. I wonder what she's doing right now.

Sorry - I know. it gets old. but hey, like I said, it's been ages since I've had this much time to myself. it leads the brain to doing something I haven't had a lot of time for lately - THINKING!

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Kate said…
Oh Carrie,

Whereas you miss the little one, and I'm sure Steve, too, you'll look back on this time and know that you somehow enjoyed it, if not just survived it. Sometimes we need a few quiet moments to regroup. Something about absence making the heart grow fonder and time alone helping us to make sense of it all. Enjoy it as much as you can and squeeze Dahlia when you see her. You'll love her all the more!
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