Friday, September 02, 2011

Create.

(stolen from my today's 750words.com entry)

All I want to do is make. Make things. Create. Construct. I cannot stop myself from exploring new ideas & new things to make. I could make these things as gifts. I could make them to sell. But I have to make. Make make make. I'm pretty sure it drives my husband absolutely crazy as I have more supplies than I really know what to do with. Sometimes I think I should really get down to brass tacks & decide what I REALLY want to specialize in. Is it knitting/crocheting? Is it sewing? Is it paper crafts? Is it jewelry? What is it? Because I love to do all of these things. So I keep exploring. I keep making. I keep ending up with great ideas that sometimes don't turn out all that great. In fact, sometimes I end up with all the supplies for a certain project & then I end up just chucking it all after years & years because I've lost interest, come to my senses, had a baby & have no time, etc.

When I lived in LA I got into making soaps & candles. I'm sure my family was OVERJOYED to get yet another homemade body scrub, bubble bath, bath salts or candle from me. I spent lots of time & money concocting glycerin soaps with essential oils & rose petals. I invested in different molds & old pans to melt things in. I did the same with candles. Candles are fun. I stained a few rented apartment countertops with the various dyes (usually crayons). But it did not sustain. I never had the room. I never got 'good enough' to keep going with such projects. So I moved on. Of course that was after I moved a huge box of supplies (including a large flat piece of (very heavy) 'clear' wax for candle making).

After returning to Duluth I got more into scrapbooking & cardmaking. Of course my sister is the star scrapbooker in our family & I can't even hope to keep up with her. I don't have the preciseness or the attention span. I'm not a perfectionist & I hate that. i have tried to change things, but I can't seem to follow through. So I do a little here & there. I love scrapbooks & everything that goes along with it - paper - especially paper. I sort of have paper addiction. I couldn't ever have "too much" paper (again, my husband likely disagrees with me on this point). And cards. I love making cards. I love using stamps, embellishments, for a while I was into quilling (rolled paper). I love mail - getting & sending - so this is a perfect hobby for me. I love things that are handmade. That people had to put (even 15 minutes!) time into making. And quite frankly the 'hand made' cards they sell at Target are so expensive - and really not that difficult to copy. I hope people appreciate the hand made cards. I love making them. I just wish I had more time to make a bunch so I wasn't always in a pinch to make a nice card.

For a while I thought I would make scrabble tile pendant necklaces, but I had trouble with the epoxy sitting just right (apparently I have no attention span & get bored or frustrated & give up too quickly). Now I'm making bottle cap necklaces which I adore. I'm not sure if they'll sell or not, but my GOAL is to actually get some items up on Etsy & make a go of it. Anything would help at this point.

I love to knit. I am almost done with August's baby blanket. It's big & cozy & I hope he loves it. At least some day. It took Dahlia a while to come around to hers (it's not as soft as I would like it to be) but she does use it at daycare which makes me happy. I am done with my felted bag but I'd like to line it. Of course there were no instructions on that so I have to sort of just figure it out. Hmmmm. I finished Steve's scarf - he's ready for winter! I have a few baby wash cloths in inventory - so I'm almost ready to start a new knitting project - yay! I have some beautiful yarn from Three Irish Girls that I would like to put to good use. Maybe I should return to trying to make socks? I'm not sure if I could get into it again or not but I still think it'd be fun.

I'm also a HUGE hoarder of magazines. I love them. I love going through them & tearing out images that appeal to me in an instant. I love the textures, the lighting, the fashion, the artistry, the nature, the simplicity, the vintage-ness. I have oodles of National Geographics that I inherited years ago from my mother-in-law which I just cannot part with. I have used them for everything from making my own envelopes, making up-cycled personalized journals, these bottle cap necklaces & of course cards. I simply cannot get rid of them! They are gold to me, I know it - somewhere. And the Martha Stewart Living magazines are just filled with so many beautiful & inspiring images. I am pretty good about going through them & tearing out my inspiring pages shortly after receiving the mags, but oh...I could drool over them for hours. When Sarah moved to Scotland, I took her bag of mags - Glamour & such. I usually don't buy these but they have been so much fun to tear apart & use for various adventures in crafting. I'm also making a "magazine bowl" which I think will be really cool if I can ever finish the darn thing.

So you see I'm a girl who likes to dabble in many things. I cannot get enough of trying new things (I didn't even touch on sewing yet! Oh the things I want to sew! quilts & dresses for Dahlia & bags & table runners and and and....). I love searching the internet & being inspired. Pinterest has made me so full of motivation & creativity that sometimes it's almost overwhelming. I don't know though if I should try to focus my creativity into ONE area & actually perfect something or if I should continue to spread my interests far & wide & keep doing a little bit of everything (albeit not very well).

This is my quandry. My constant quandry. A friend of mine once said, "why would you give up doing all the things that you love? It is what makes you, you." I have carried that with me for years. Why would I? Do I need to? I don't know.

2 comments:

Meigan said...

Oh! I know how you feel! I once had a mentor tell me she was concerned that "I had too many interests" and it would hurt my career. *sigh* I think it's just what makes us the people we are.

How about we open a little cafe/shop on the north shore & sell cupcakes, afghans, stationary, and jewelry? Our guys can offer guided hikes/fishing trips & our kids can do all the cleaning.

MamaD4 said...

I JUST discovered paper. I have two huge pads of beautifully patterned paper upstairs in my "craft drawer", which is one drawer in my bureau, so I try to keep it small. I bought a Martha Stewart butterfly punch and two canvasses, painted them and punched about 200 vari-colored butterflies out and hot glued them to the canvas randomly. I actually love it--and I almost never finish any craft I start OR am happy with the results (I am the perfectionist). But it made me super happy to create it. You've shown the things you create and they're all fantastic...I think as long as the supplies aren't breaking the bank and/or overwhelming your space, keep doing a little here and a little there. There are just some crafts we outgrow...like I dumped all my counted cross-stitch stuff finally. I just knew I wasn't going to be returning to it.