Well, a chapter in my life is ending.
I found out yesterday that my company will no longer be getting the funding that has kept us afloat for the past almost 3 years.
We were on a 5-year plan - 5 years to make films & try to sell them (some?), try to network & make connections, try to become self-sustaining. We had an angel who has supported us through all of this - sorry an investor - but really an angel. I have been incredibly blessed to work in a field that is challenging & creative; to learn so many different things; to travel a bit, to make new connections & to set my own schedule which has been ever so helpful while raising a toddler.
But...the economy crashed, our investor got a (n expensive) divorce, new projects were started and I think he got bored with us. We are no longer a priority. I get that. I completely & totally understand that we are owed nothing. I am grateful for what I have received.
He said that he will see RILEY through to completion (finishing production, post-production & marketing) but I'm not sure if that includes continuing to get paid. In fact I'm pretty sure it doesn't.
This presents a couple of issues:
1) How can I continue to work a full-time job (sound design, color correction & promotion alone is plenty of work) while not getting paid?
2) If I'm not getting paid how can I afford to take Dahlia to daycare....and if she's with me (which she could be) who can I get all those other things done?
3) If we're just cut off - don't get enough money to finish the film & promotion - what's the point? Why not walk away now? (except for the fact that I am proud of this film and really hope that it gets it's due).
So, lots of thinking, planning, budget making, etc. Trying to figure out if there's something I can do from home to bring in some income....knowing that trying to get a job in this economy in DULUTH while PREGNANT and having a toddler is going to be pretty tough. I'd be lucky to to find a job that would just cover daycare for the month and then what's the point? And employers just LOVE to hire pregnant women, don't they?
So, although in my heart I know it's time to move on...I'm just not quite prepared. I was hoping for a few months to pad out the bank account and build a safety net. My brain hurts from thinking of all the untangling that comes with dissovling a company (ultimately) & the thought of leaving RILEY unfinished really is heartbreaking. I just don't know what the future holds.