Wednesday, December 31, 2008

2008 - A Recap

So here we are on the last day of the year. How did that happen? Isn't supposed to only be August or something? I could've sworn we missed an entire season. Ah well. I suppose we didn't and time just moves quickly and here we are.

I'm not going to lie. This year was tough. Having a new baby was something that I was prepared for and so totally unprepared for it's hard to explain. I fell in love with my daughter but I don't think I adjusted to motherhood well. I'm not used to sleepless nights and having to put someone else first 24 hours a day. While I consider myself to be fairly laid back, this new little person had me stressed out and discombobulated for most of the year! I think we're both learning though and figuring out our relationship and both of us are gaining some independence from each other, and I think that's a good thing. I love this little one so much. Her goofy crinkled up nose smiles, all of her "words" and noises, the way she smells, the way she crawls, the way her eyes light up when she sees something she likes. I guess I thought it would be easier and it wasn't. But I lived to tell the tale and feel like I'm coming out on the other side.

Workwise things were tough too. Trying to split my attention between Miss Dahlia and keeping on track is hard. Especially when I bring her with me. It's great but I feel like we're both getting the short end of the stick. I can't concentrate on work and she doesn't get the undivided attention she deserves. yeah, I think some of that's okay and she's really good and occupying herself, she met & charmed a lot of new (adult) friends and we do okay but I think some changes on that front are coming soon and may restore some sanity to me and instill more independence in her.

Steve & I had a big year - new baby, new job (for him), new house, selling an old house. We took a trip to California to celebrate my friend's wedding, we hiked a bit, we camped a couple times, we canoed with a baby, we escaped for a few days for our anniversary. We worked our butts off and are sorely in need of a vacation. Maybe 2009 will bring one of those.

I didn't read as much, watch as many movies, drink as much water, knit as much, scrapbook as much, cook as much, hike as much, lose as much weight as I wanted but sometimes you have to let go of expectations and go with the flow. When you look back at your life, one year is a pretty small investment, especially considering all the other things that happened.

So, Happy New Year all. I hope 2009 is very good to you - that the economic demons are kept at bay, that love is in your heart, that peace surrounds you, that contentment is yours.

Here's to a great 2009!

4 comments:

feisty said...

what a nice posting! it is nice to see an honest account of motherhood from someone who loves their kid soooo much, yet also keeps her motherhood role in perspective :)

happy new year to you and Ms. Dahlia and to Steve (go go greenspace saver!).

Kate said...

Happy New Year!

I cherish being a part of your life - from near and far. And that I get to be a part of Dahlia's life - if only by seeing the pictures of her day by day.

It is a gift you give me.

-Peder said...

I agree that the first year is tough. I hope that you find the next ones easier. And that 2009 is a great one for you!

Meigan said...

What a thoughtful post... Beautifully said!

Happy new year to you, too! Having the move behind you will be huge. You had one aggressive 2008, lady. I'm very impressed!