GD or God Dammit
I don't know why I'm letting this get to me so much. Okay - I sort of know. I'm playing POOR ME. Woe is Me. Blah blah blah - I'm whining.
I have a 3 hour doctor's appointment (again!) on Tuesday. That's when they find out my dark & mysterious medical history (um, isn't it in their computers?), give me a physical exam (um, haven't I been doing this for the past 7 1/2 months?), put me on a diet, etc. I'm anxious to go because I want to find out the particulars and what I can do to make sure it doesn't get worse.
But I'm irritated.
I have not quite gained 20lbs in this pregnancy thus far...which means with 9 1/2 weeks to go - let's say even a pound a week - 30lbs in a pregnancy is right in the middle of "normal" for someone of "normal" size to gain.
I don't eat like a pig or a garbage can! I eat a lot of fruits & veggies, sure a lot of carbs too, and the sweets things has just recently kicked in (which is new for me because in "real life" i'm more of a savory than a sweet) but I don't excessively eat any one thing, nor do I crave junk food. I'm not a McDonald's lover, I bring my lunch to work (wrap sandwich, apple, carrots, granola bar, etc) to work 95% of the days and I drink a lot of water.
I exercise - well, that's been slowing down but in the "research" I've done it says that you're far less likely to get GD if you exercise the year before your pregnancy and also during. Well, I think I'm pretty active. We hike, we bike, we camp, canoe, I climbed a freaking mountain in Sweden during at 20 weeks (or thereabouts) for crying out loud.
SO what am I doing wrong?
I guess the answer probably is - nothing. But that is totally unsatisfying. I can only blame myself, my genes, my diet coke a day (so sue me, the doc said it was okay), my neurosis and my absolute need to knit & read daily - but I don't think any of those (besides my genes perhaps) are the answer.
*sigh* I guess I'm just frustrated. It's hard when you feel like you've been "good" and are following *most* of the rules and you still are a failure.
Oh and I think they should stop saying "You failed your test..." It's bad for us nerdy/school types to hear these things. It leads to more hormonal tears and brow-beating.
I have a 3 hour doctor's appointment (again!) on Tuesday. That's when they find out my dark & mysterious medical history (um, isn't it in their computers?), give me a physical exam (um, haven't I been doing this for the past 7 1/2 months?), put me on a diet, etc. I'm anxious to go because I want to find out the particulars and what I can do to make sure it doesn't get worse.
But I'm irritated.
I have not quite gained 20lbs in this pregnancy thus far...which means with 9 1/2 weeks to go - let's say even a pound a week - 30lbs in a pregnancy is right in the middle of "normal" for someone of "normal" size to gain.
I don't eat like a pig or a garbage can! I eat a lot of fruits & veggies, sure a lot of carbs too, and the sweets things has just recently kicked in (which is new for me because in "real life" i'm more of a savory than a sweet) but I don't excessively eat any one thing, nor do I crave junk food. I'm not a McDonald's lover, I bring my lunch to work (wrap sandwich, apple, carrots, granola bar, etc) to work 95% of the days and I drink a lot of water.
I exercise - well, that's been slowing down but in the "research" I've done it says that you're far less likely to get GD if you exercise the year before your pregnancy and also during. Well, I think I'm pretty active. We hike, we bike, we camp, canoe, I climbed a freaking mountain in Sweden during at 20 weeks (or thereabouts) for crying out loud.
SO what am I doing wrong?
I guess the answer probably is - nothing. But that is totally unsatisfying. I can only blame myself, my genes, my diet coke a day (so sue me, the doc said it was okay), my neurosis and my absolute need to knit & read daily - but I don't think any of those (besides my genes perhaps) are the answer.
*sigh* I guess I'm just frustrated. It's hard when you feel like you've been "good" and are following *most* of the rules and you still are a failure.
Oh and I think they should stop saying "You failed your test..." It's bad for us nerdy/school types to hear these things. It leads to more hormonal tears and brow-beating.
Comments
But hearing 'you failed' sucks - and I can understand your moood...
:(
I can't wait to hear what the doctor says. I know it'll turn out ok. **Hugs**
However, you must stop worrying about it or at least not worry as much. Between GD, your BIL's comments, work, etc. you will give yourself an ulcer or something else.
In the words of Bobby McFerrin, "Don't Worry, Be Happy"
My mom and sister both had GD while PG. Please don't use the fail word because nothing is further from the truth. You're already a great mom for taking such good care of yourself and the baby.
And I can't believe you're not eating olives. I think I went through a pint of olives a day when PG. I think I cried once, wept really, when we were out of olives.
SBW, Minnesota expat
It sounds like you already know that you've been way more careful in your pregnancy than so many moms-to-be - and even though this isn't the result you wanted for this, in the long run it's still going to pay off in the most important way - a healthy baby. Be glad you've had such good habits - it will make restrictions for GD that much easier to adapt.
It's not your fault, but it's OK to complain about it. You're in your third trimester - whining is your God-given right. This will all pass and before you know it you will be holding little Baby B in your arms!!!
I know it's frustrating though. On the plus side, it goes away at delivery!
(Stopping by from NaBloPoMo MN bloggers!)
Holy carp! only 9 more weeks! (if that long!)