Paranoia

So I'm in a phase where I "don't think" the baby is moving enough. That is - it's been not as much in the previous couple of days but I still feel a few kicks and shifts throughout the day. Last night this prompted the worst pregnancy/baby nightmare I have ever had - it was awful and I woke up just stressed out and very upset...and then I would try to lay there and feel any minute action, flicker, swish, push, kick, etc only to not feel anything (probably because I was trying so hard). So I'd lay there for a couple hours and then FALL BACK INTO THE SAME DREAM! This never happens with me. Not with good dreams, not with bad ones (and I try on the good ones!). It just went on and on and on and kept getting worse and worse. I'm so freaking paranoid right now it's just not cool. Pfffft.

And in other news, my in-laws have offered to throw me a family baby shower! I'm very excited about this and think it'll be fun...but due to the timing of the due date (2 weeks after Christmas) people's schedules are hairy. I know this and I know a shower is not something to get stressed about as it's supposed to be FUN! So, I asked the hostess if she thought maybe doing one AFTER the baby's born would work better schedule wise. She agreed that that would be fine and fun even (then people could meet Baby B), we could all drink wine and it would be a happy occasion. I just talked to my MIL and can hear the disappointment DRIPPING from her words about how we can't have it before. *sigh* I said - every weekend in October is filled with work; the first two weekends in November are filled. There is one weekend in November where it *might* work and then we get into holiday season where I'm SO SURE everyone from the cities will want to drive up in nasty pre-holiday weather do Duluth (because I am not going south!) to have a shower for me. Doubtful. Some suggestions - how bout OVER Christmas? Um, that's within 14 days of my due date....which I know, I know, first babies are notoriously late but that seems a little close for comfort for me. But now I'm feeling ungrateful and annoying and UGH.

Sometimes on Mondays you should just stay in bed (unless of course that just makes you lay there in full-on paranoia. NO ESCAPE!)

Comments

Test said…
Those dreams are totally normal. Might have gotten even weirder since her arrival. I'm sure the babe is just going through a growth spurt and conserving energy.

Re: your shower. It's about you and the babe. If it works better for you to have it after the babe is born, so be it. As you know - all of ours turned out to be after her arrival and people LOVED it.
11:37 AM
Sarita said…
The dreams are completely normal. It helped me to keep reminding myself that the babe is in the safest place s/he can possibly be. It has everything it needs.

I agree that you get to be selfish about the shower thing. You just don't know what will happen (isn't it maddening?)
1:39 PM
Mrs. Ca said…
I haven't had any scary pregnancy dreams yet, but I've heard they can be bad, so I'm not looking forward to them. And I totally agree about the staying in bed statement - that's exactly where I went after my appointment this morning and I've been here ever since.
2:02 PM
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