Wednesday, August 31, 2005
We took a 1.8 mile hike to the North Head Lighthouse on a cliff overlooking the
We haven't set a date yet, I'm trying to get a hold of different places up here and get information. Things are booking up (or booked up) for next summer (July) already so I do feel a bit of pressure. We may have to wait til September which wouldn't be bad either (just a longer wait...).
So now the fun begins....right?
(that's what I hear anyway....)
I'm sure there'll be a wedding blog soon....
Monday, August 29, 2005
Friday, August 19, 2005
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
I am seriously pissed off at myself. I *claim* to be super organized what with the vacation binder and the daily to-do lists and blah blah blah. Grrrr....
Today after work my "to do" was:
bake zucchini bread
pack dry goods for camping & supplies
make zucchini loaf #2
I did all of those things - several rows (which now I think I have to take out because I'm SO TOTALLY CONFUSED), being very smug and proud of myself all the while and I go to rehearsal. As I walk in the theatre 15 minutes *early* I notice that EVERYONE IS ALREADY ON STAGE....I panic, I throw down my stuff and high-tail it up there. I'm confused. We're doing a new song and dance. The director sees me and says "Oh, you are here. Well, that's too bad because I was going to put you in lots of little dancy bits but now you'll just have to stand there."
Apparently I've been living today like it's THURSDAY. Tonight's rehearsal was at 6:45. I was an hour late And a hUGE ass.
All in all they were pretty cool about it and I picked up everything I needed learn from castmates (I mean really, we're in a pub, we're ruffians, we're drunk, we're singing. Not that difficult). I'm just bummed because for all of my EGO tantrums of last week I go and fuck this up. Fuck up actually getting more things to do and being in dance because....
I AM AN ASS.
I'm so frustrated right now. I know this is karma biting me in the butt but it hurts and I don't like it.
And now, the knitting? Holy crap. There's P2 tog and K1 YO 6 times and I'm still confused as to WHICH WAY THE YARN SHOULD COME FROM. And I'm using circular needles so that doesn't help (but thanks for the suggestion) and now I can't even tell up from down and I want to rip it all out and start over just for practice but I won't but I should. Hmph. I am pouting huge over this and needed to let it out I guess. I'll be going back to my "mentor" tomorrow and hoping that she can make heads or tails over what I've done. *sigh*
Alright - time now to hit the hay, crack my book and forget out this ridiculous night.
PS - Tomorrow's Thursday, right?!??!
Monday, August 15, 2005
So, as you can probably guess, Iko was sprayed by a skunk on Saturday night. Not any Saturday night, but the ONLY night this summer we've planned to have people over. A *party* if you will. It was a bit cool but we were all in the backyard, grill grilling, lights twinkling, beers being drunken...you get the idea....our neighbors and their cat came over and all was fairly well with the world (I was disappointed in the turn out but that is another sob story all together). We're enjoying burgers fresh off the grill when....Iko comes running out of the bushes....and then Sat Nam (neighbor's cat)....and then the smell. Ugh. Like tear gas but worse. I don't really know since I've never been tear gassed. Anyway - Steve was freaking out a bit since Iko had been sprayed right in the face. He was full of snot and mucus with running eyes, drooling mouth - it was very pathetic. He took Iko upstairs to the tub, I rummaged the pantry for tomato items (tomato sauce, pizza quick sauce and spaghetti sauce w/roasted garlic) and changed into grubby clothes. And then the fun started. I held Iko and bathed him in the sauce while Steve soothed and gave instructions to his brother to go buy more tomato juice and his friend to get the dish soap, etc. After about an hour of later, rinse, repeat we let him lick himself dry and re-joined the party. It had been about an hour. My ribs are sore from leaning over the tub for that whole time, Iko is a bit pink (from the sauce) and he still stinks a bit. Needless to say it wasn't exactly how I wanted to spend my Saturday evening. And what a buzz kill! Holy cow! Shortly after that everyone left - and not even 10:30 - so you know, we throw great stinky parties. *sigh*
And now today - not one, but TWO instances of cat pee to clean up. I am incredibly disheartened. One on the closet door in the den and one in the laundry basket which held the stinky skunk clothes which I had washed immediately on Saturday night. I am re-washing them for obvious reasons. What is their problem?! Why don't they love us? What are they doing to us?!?!
And we're leaving on Friday for a week. I'm so scared as to what we'll find upon our return. And I really don't want our neighbors or Steve's brother to have to deal with massive quantities of cat urine.
Trying to post quickly on lunchbreak and now, no updating. Grrrrr....I will try to re-do what I just did...
Rude Cactus tagged me to list 5 of my idiosyncrasies...not easy feat with so many but I have picked out a few to entertain...This exercise is interesting to me, because we're so willing to spill our "crazy" all over the internet while people in the real world (well, some anyway) try so hard to conceal them. Hmmmm If I started trying to conceal all the "weird" stuff I do, people would worry that there was something wrong with me.
I'm sure I have more than I can think of but....here are the ones that jump to mind:
1) I do not walk on any grates or metal covers on sidewalks. I also don't step over sewer grates (thanks, Stephen King). This was especially difficult when I lived in LA and sometimes entire sections of the sidewalk were covered with metal doors (going where?!?!?) or grates. I would try to walk in the street, but if that was not possible I would run across the grate, shuddering the whole time.
2) I have to wet my toothbrush after putting toothpaste on it. This often washes all the toothpaste off and I have to start over but I have to do it anyway. I don’t know why.
3) I can only get on my bike from the left side. I’m completely uncoordinated apparently from the right side and I’m pretty sure I would fall right over if I tried to do it that way. So I don’t.
4) I’m paranoid – not because I think I’m a failure but because I really think someone is out to get me!! There is always someone “following” me, laughing at me or doing something to negatively affect my near future. Oy vey.
5) I clean my ears with q-tips after every-other shower….Not every shower, not once a week….it has to be every other.There are many more about lists and cd collections being alphabetized and doing laundry but you get the point, right?
I like idiosyncrasies...they make us all more interesting, don't you think?
I tag Future Poltergeist (when he returns from up nort), Anna-Banana, Donna and AfricanKelli.
yay my first Tag. Thanks Chris,
oh and btw, I'm a dork.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Next up: menu planning!
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
btw - reading The Time Traveler's Wife right now and I'm in love with it! I'm only 60 pages or so in but I find it fascinating. If you haven't, check it out!
I was busy today planning my trip out west - it's a hell of a lot of driving and I hope we feel like we have enough time. Plans? Portland & its various gardens and breweries, Lewis & Clark everything, Astoria - home of the Goonies, various state and national parks and forests, Mt. Hood, Mt. Rainier (?), Mount St. Helens, Washington vineyards and Seattle.
Can't wait. My geeky binder which I'm compiling (I dont' have the internet in my car!! What else can I do?!) is nearing completion. Wheeeeeeeeee!
Rehearsal tonight....8:30-10 ...I kind of wish it was longer. I want more singing! I gotta join a choir or something. It's like a drug...
Monday, August 08, 2005
I am happy with my part - my part is not big enough - why did she get that part - I thought I was playing this too - I really like that I get a name - Our set is cool! - I love singing - I could sing for hours - how come my part is not bigger - I'm so happy just to be on stage - WHERE ARE MY GODDAMN LINES - rehearsal skirts, wheeee - the little kids are really cute, for now - I'm going to be singing for days on end - hmmm, shouldn't I have more FACE time -
You see how it goes? So, while I'm completely and utterly happy to be stepping back onto my "turf" I'm unsettled by this "actor" feelings that I totally forgot about. It's different when you're on the other side of the casting table, camera, editing bay - whatever....now it's all "bullshit bullshit MY LINE. bullshit bullshit MY LINE...." *sigh* I forgot that EGO was involved. Ay yi yi.....
But I'm a Virgo and therefore NOONE can know of any discontent....so I'll just tell the internet. hee hee.
Meanwhile - I think I was off on the whole time period/corset things (plus budget...??) - I'm pretty sure there'll be heaving cleavage....but I don't yet know how it'll be dressed.
Break out the character heels - tomorrow we block!
*I swear I am really happy to be in this show. I'm not trying to be a bitchy whiny-whinerson...okay?
Weekend was long and very short. Left Duluth about 7pm on Friday night got back last night at 11pm. Ugh. I spent many hours in front of a computer -well, behind the guy that was in front of the computer. We tweaked, listened, nudged, changed, recorded, bounced and all that hoo-ha. We watched the film w/new sound yesterday afternoon and there were multiple technical problems. Things were in sync, I was having a panic attack, it was getting late and SO GODDAMN HOT (I'm still not complaining, I swear).
So, it now SOUNDS like a real movie. Yay! I'm so pleased with the results. The mixing went good despite the minor problemos.
I'm so. ready. to. be. done. Have I mentioned that?!
Y'all better come and see the film or rent or or SOMETHING for cryin' out loud. Don't you know what I do for you people?!?! (hee hee)
Right now it's 95 or so, 95 % humidity and windy - like hair dryer blowing on you. Blech. I'm in the "cool" room and can't bear to go downstairs and actually do anything. ay yi yi
1st rehearsal tonight - yay!
Vacation planning has commenced!! Whoooooooooo!!!!!
I'm a dorky spaz, so I will go now....
Friday, August 05, 2005
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Ugh - note to self - don't ever do that again just before callbacks!
I think it was mostly the food's fault. Gah.
Callbacks went...good? I think...? I didn't get called back for the lead, but I have to keep reminding myself that I'm NOT an ingenue, I've NEVER been an ingenue and I will NEVER be an ingenue and I'm *mostly* just fine with that. Partly because I'm short, partly because I don't have the *looks.* Ah well, non-leads are fun too and really? I just want to be on stage (with some lines and singing would be nice..)....so yeah, it was quick, painless and I'll find out tomorrow.
And if it's a no-go, well, I might have a lead on a really fun sounding children's show (also a musical) happening at the same time. It's great the people you meet while waiting to go in and do your thing. :-) I just gotta get back in the swing of things, that's the biggest part.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
And today - of all days - took Beavis to the vet for exam and shots, got them good pricey Rx food and will get Beavis's Rx filled tomorrow ($147 so far) and this is the thanks?!?! They even got tasty diced chicken in gravy soft food for dinner tonight BECAUSE THEY HAD BEEN SO GOOD.
It's sooooo disheartening.....
Monday, August 01, 2005
The weekend went like this:
golfing with dad
had the folks over for dinner
went shopping with mom
worked on film (ripped hair out)
painted porch (2nd coat - whooo)
dip in (very cold) lake (Superior, that is)
bbq with neighbors
the coolest clouds EVER
obnoxious cats throughout the night meowing away
It was good. I think I'm feeling good today because I'm wearing a very lively brand-spanking-new (sale items!) outfit - yellow polo (me? in a polo? this works for some reason) and a lime green & yellow skirt with flowers on it - so girly - I love it!